Today I woke up hacking up a lung for the 4th day in a row and my ears feel like they have oceans in them and my nose is itching so bad I want to stick a drill bit up there to get some kind of relief. I realized that I catch a lot of flack in my video comments and on social media for being sick all the time and not producing enough videos as a result and I realize that it’s absolutely true!
Some people say it’s because I’m fat, some people say it’s because I don’t exercise enough and other people just think I’m unlucky and just have a crap immune system. The part that nearly nobody touches on is that I have a 5 year old son in the autistic spectrum that literally likes to put his hands on everything and goes to public school, private therapy and interacts with more people in the average day then most people do in a week.
The problem is my immune system is very weak from taking antibiotics in one form or another for literally everything for most of my life because of lazy doctors. When I get sick it takes 5 – 7 days for me to recover where as Xander and Mrs. Barnacules with the same exact cold will beat it in 3 – 4 days (sometimes faster). My immune system is lethargic and slow but I refuse to take antibiotics unless they are 100% necessary because I don’t wan to become so resistant to them that when I finally do have something that requires them my body doesn’t respond.
That unfortunately means I have to suffer through being sick each and every time and it’s almost always some bacterial infection in my lungs, throat, eats, sinuses, etc. I rarely get a sickness that is viral with a fever and headaches, etc.
Back when I worked at Microsoft when I got sick I could just remote in from home and write code all day, that’s easy to do when you’re sick. Just wrap yourself up in a blanket with a laptop in bed, get some coffee or tea and just crank out code. I didn’t have to talk, I didn’t have to move a lot, so it just worked.
Now that I work in media where my presence in front of the camera is required it changes what I can do when I’m sick. I don’t want to shoot a video where my nose is running and my eyes are watering and I’m coughing constantly. People would just spam the comments about what is wrong with me and not focus on the content itself. So that unfortunately means I’m not producing content when I’m sick which can be a week at a time. Sometimes it can even be more like with my gout episode I had in my foot that lasted for nearly a month. I still shot videos but I was in a lot of pain when I did them and it probably showed.
The truth is I do have a weak immune system, and I think exercise and possibly losing some weight could help with that and I fully plan to explore that. My foot is finally feeling better after that doctor finally put me on medicine to lower my uric acid to prevent gout attacks and once I’m over this nasty southern California sickness I brought back from Disneyland I will be back to the gym.
I figured I would spare you guys another vlog where I talk about why I’m not making videos as fast as you would like since a lot of people get irritated by that. So I figured I would just write it in my BLOG for my more supportive followers.
I don’t want to be sick, I don’t want to be fat, I don’t want to have a foot with gout crystals ripping through the joints. I don’t want a bad back that makes me take medicine to do things like bike riding and snowboarding just to cope with the pain. I want to be healthy and happy, but it’s not as simple as that otherwise I would have done it a 1000 times over. I understand their are some amazing success stories out there, and I hope one day the stars align for me and I get to be one of them. But in the mean time I’m going to do what I can and what I can tolerate towards becoming a little more germophobic and get a lot more exercise. They also say sleep is an important part of the immune system and because of my back I never sleep well, I can’t remember the last time I went to sleep and didn’t wake up at least 5 – 6 times throughout the night to move around to release pain in my back. I’ve tried multiple mattresses, etc. It’s just the curse of the compressed disc and having a bone spur sitting on my sciatic nerve. But I hope that losing weight will help with that so it’s still a goal of mine!
Thanks for reading, there should be a #TechTalk tonight @ 5pm PST (2/11). I appreciate the patience and understanding when it comes to new content. I do realize this is my job now and I have to deliver on some what of a solid schedule if I’m going to continue to succeed and build a future for my family. And I’m giving it one more year, if things don’t improve across the board by 2017 I’m going back to a software development job and going back to YouTube just being an occasional hobby. I also think the stress created from this job contributes a lot of my immune system health and I’m taking steps to work on that also. I’ll keep you guys updated and I will eventually do a BarnaVlog on my Disneyland vacation when the time is right but that ended up being a very stressful experience for me rather then a vacation so I’m giving myself some time to recover from it so I can look at the footage with new eyes.
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